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Tonight, I'm sitting at my desk, thinking about a uniquely painful, embarrassing. yet brave moment I experienced one day in Grade 9.
I play a bit of piano, but I'm mostly into composition. Usually, I write lyrics to some of the songs, but I never sing them.
Auditions for the annual Music Gala were coming up and for the first time, I decided to sing along to one of my compositions. It was a brave idea, because I knew I couldn't sing that well. I can sing a bit, sometimes, but not to this song. This song had some low notes, and then high notes, it was a tough song to sing. For some reason, I thought I could wing it. I had not bothered to write the other half of the lyrics, I didn't even memorised the lyrics I did have.
"I can't sing, but I'm doing this to get the song out, not my voice," I had told myself to get myself to audition.
The auditions came, and I sang terribly, mumbling through half of the lyrics.
I walked out of the audition room, hearing comments about my singing.
When I got to the bathroom to change out of the nice outfit I had worn to the audition and into my uniform, the cleaner was mopping the bathroom floors. She saw that I was upset.
"You played the piano well." she said, trying to cheer me up.
"And my singing? " I asked.
"You must practice a bit more."
Yes, tonight I cringe at that memory. Yet, I completely ignore the teenage girl who had tried to do something new.
It is all about perspective.
There are multiple ways and perspectives to look at a situation. For example:
When you get the courage to ask your crush out, and he/she says no; there are two ways to view that:
1: I got rejected. That feels terrible. I'm so embarrassed. I shouldn't have done that.
2: She/ He said no, and although I feel sad, I had the courage to ask. No regrets.
Instead of a failure, it's a lesson.
Instead of embarrassment, it's a milestone.
Instead of rejection, it may be God's redirection, leading you to something new, something that will be better for you.
Keep living. Life is too short to play it safe.
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